February 2012
45 posts
I wish that everyone would stop judging.
We had this life, this dream falling apart at the seams.
Keep having these random urges to cry and getting emotional very easily.
Just thinking about how detached I am getting from everyone, and I guess half the time it’s self inflicted but I can’t help feeling so much less sociable these days. Gone are the days that I find it easy to talk to people, to make new friends easily and be able to hold a conversation with anyone comfortably. These days, I just feel like talking to people I’m really comfortable...
When the rain Is blowing in your face And the whole world Is on your case I could offer you A warm embrace To make you feel my love When the evening shadows And the stars appear And there is no - one there To dry your tears I could hold you For a million years To make you feel my love I know you Haven’t made Your mind up yet But I would never Do you wrong I’ve known...
“Along the way, I’ve learned that you can’t let anyone in too far and you can’t...”
– (via eletheowl
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The pain sets in and I don’t cry. I only feel gravity and I don’t know why.
Feeling super angsty and unhappy today. Wanted to go run in the gym. But the treadmills were all taken by slim and fit people who seemed to be running for the longest time. Sat at a bench to wait and let my mind drift to negative thoughts. Felt so frustrated I almost allowed myself to tear in public. When I finally got to use the treadmill, I unknowingly ran at a pace much higher than usual, and...
I am over you, really I am.
Just that suddenly I find myself missing all that we had. All the time we spent together, all the stupid and childish things we used to do, those feelings that make me smile, laugh and cry. I miss you I really do. And I hope you are happy.
Can feel myself slipping to exasperation and depression. Getting annoyed at little things and feeling sian and uninterested in everything.
Who do you think you are, running around leaving scars. Collecting your jar of heart, tearing love apart.
You are gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul. Don’t come back for me.
Who do you think you are
Read my friend’s blog about how she and her boyfriend spent valentines together. And it was so sweet it made me feel kinduv sick. Idk, found myself feeling kinduv envious how in love they both are. How they have been together for 4/5 years but still love each other as much. How her boyfriend always does such sweet stuff to make her happy and their relationship never gets boring. She wrote...
“Grabbed lunch with my tutorial friends and then it was off to meet Ems and...”
– Sherryn <3
Goodbye my friend.
I thought I was doing fine, thought I was all mentally prepared for this. Spent the day trying to be happy, cracking jokes and smiling so hard so I wouldn’t be sad about the farewell. But when the time came, I couldn’t help it. When I hugged Emily and realised she was crying in my arms, the tears just flowed out. It’s such a horrible feeling knowing that I’m not going to...
Hold it all in.
You don’t even care.
Can’t stop wondering whether I’m really gonna make it in the end.
January 2012
63 posts
Maybe I need a psychiatrist
Freaking feel like crying everytime I think about it.
Sometimes I just feel like swearing, shouting and crying till my body can’t take it anymore. All time low.
Can’t deal with all this right now.
